Today is January 1, 2021. 2020 was full of emotion, it had very hard times for my family and me. We lost a lot of people that meant everything to us. Sometimes we lost ourselves within the chaos of it all, other times we laughed, tried new things, and stepped out of our comfort zones. My family stood against what we thought would break us. The gym was an outlet for me, and it closed at the beginning of the pandemic (it is still unsettling to even say the word pandemic) I think that is what got me in the early months of the year. Maybe that is why I became so angry and felt defeated back in March. What I felt was I couldn’t get at my goal of weight loss I didn’t realize that since the gym was closed, I had to rely on myself more than I thought I did before. If I didn’t, I would have lost everything that I busted my ass off for. I bought weights, a yoga mat, resistance bands, and brought in a new attitude.

There was a fire in me at the time to be the best version of myself. I fell into the whole pandemic depression, gained some weight back. I didn’t feel myself at all because there was nowhere to go. I picked myself up around the summer and made myself a priority. I became selfish when I know I needed to. Said no to many things, but I didn’t feel guilty about it. My full-time job became more and more work. I have contemplated on what I want to do with my life so many times this year. I have questioned my purpose, as to what I am really supposed to do in this life. I realized that I am not a horrible mom. I am still working on my relationship with my husband as it has been rocky this past year. There were a lot of lessons and heartache in 2020. But what we did to overcome all of it will lead us into the new year with wisdom.

It is supposed to be a time to start fresh and start your new goals. I haven’t really put much thought into what I want my goals set as. There is so many things that I want to either start or continue this year that I didn’t do last year. I know I want to continue my photography business, workout 5 days a week, start my blog, stay humble, and be the best version of myself. I never thought that I would be writing this on a blog that I have published. This new year I am taking and putting all my thoughts down on paper. I want to share my journey with others. Not just my fitness journey, but my life journey as well.

Be prepared for a new me because the old me is no longer. I am stronger and more confident than I have been in a long time. Closed out 2020 like the ugly dumpster fire it was. Here is to a New Year!